The Trio

My search for new art forms led me to the page on Zentangle art. It looked to me like squiggly lines that we make when we do mehendi. I wondered which would be design that I would enjoy creating using this art to the max. Days went on and finally one nite (my usual late nites are great inspiration moments for my best arts) I stuck upon the design ,I decided to create US, our character, our role, our emotions.. THE TRIO (Leo, Gemini Aries) yeah , u guessed it, MY FAMILY comprising of 2 powerful FIRE signs and the beautiful AIR sign who always managed to sail through between us at times adding fuel and at times blowing us away out of our senses, playing the perfect role of the twin Gemini..

When Fire meets Fire, life can be an exuberant adventure. It's a vital match where there is mutual inspiration and encouragement.When Fire and Air get together, there can be a lot of inspired thinking.Fire helps Air find focus when scattered, and adds optimism to any plans hatched. Air can articulate the big picture for the impulse-driven Fire, while the latter keeps things from being all talk and no action. These two keep each other in stitches, open the doors of perception and find new ways to astonish the other.

Expectation reduces Joy

"Do you ever get that feeling where u don't wanna talk to anybody? You don't wanna smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just BECAUSE. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all u can do is wait". This is when you know you had "EXPECTATIONS". This is a taboo word.

Its hard to answer the questions "whats wrong" when "nothing's right".

Sometimes I feel like nobody has held me down and forced me to cry or made me hug them, or seen to the inside of me. I just say 'oh I'm fine' and walk away. Nobody's ever said to me 'no you're not'". I sometimes go into my own little world, but that's ok, cause they know me there.

There may be days when you get up in the morning and things aren't the way you had hoped they would be.That's when you have to tell yourself that things will get better.There are times when people disappoint you and let you down.But those are the times when you must remind yourself to trust your own judgments and opinions, to keep your life focused on believing in yourself.There will be challenges to face and changes to make in your life, and it is up to you to accept them. Constantly keep yourself headed in the right direction for you.It may not be easy at times, but in those times of struggle you will find a stronger sense of who you are.So when the days come that are filled with frustration and unexpected responsibilities, remember to believe in yourself and all you want your life to be.Because the challenges and changes will only help you to find the goals that you know are meant to come true for you.

People spend a lifetime searching for happiness; looking for peace. They chase idle dreams, addictions, religions, even other people, hoping to fill the emptiness that plagues them. The irony is the only place they ever needed to search was within.

When you step into this new territory in your life, one of these two things will happen. Either, you will find safe grounds... or you will be taught how to fly.

Patience

Rain pouring, sitting by the beach, hearing the crashing of waves against the rocks who sit patiently taking the blow every time it comes. A cuppa of coffee with your best friend. Bliss

While I saw the waves crashing against these rocks, i realised how difficult it is for a person to be patient with their own self. Our ego, pride,persona all feels threatened when we feel we are not meeting our expectation.When ego takes hold,patience seems a far off thought, words and feeling crash out of your mouth like these waves.And when this happens we realise that we start treating ourselves with disrespect cos of our actions.

The truth is that we are not skilled enough to handle the situation hence we end up not meeting our expectation. Let's see , we might have spoken to a loved one in a manner we later realised was unkind.May be you burnt your food today.May be you had a miserable day with your boss, so had we been more skillful in our approach we might have done better and would have had higher self esteem.

We should realise there is no quick fix to this problem cos it requires careful observation and understanding of the situation.You need to be very honest with yourself. You need to look deeper into self. Answer according to me would be through meditation. During meditation we learn to bring our thoughts to a cohesive state and understand the reason for our attitude, we then focus on our feelings,its related thoughts our physical actions following it and are able to analyse it. We spend more time in a relaxed state trying to stay with this thought. Many of us are impatient with ourselves that we do not take care of our body and mind. We are not aware of our surroundings.Without a sense of gratitude,graciousness and a level of acceptance we end up living in a constant state of dissatisfaction.

Let there be lightness within you. Look at what motivates you to be patient, focus on it.Take it week by week. Give it time to sink in.Be compassionate with yourself. You will soon see you are developing patience and learn to be like the rock that I saw who took the hitting of the waves.

Deep Down

The word DEEP has so much to it. Deep in Hindi is light , in English it means Below.. Put it together are we saying there is always light ahead.

Is that why when we look deeper into ourselves we see that there is light ahead of the dark tunnel. We speak with what lies within our outer mind and later on think Deep if we actually meant what we said and later realize the true meaning.

As I go through all kinds of feelings and experiences in my journey of life I have this question in mind always as to "What is that I need NOW to be happy?" and the answer that I keep coming to is only Deep and vast love, bonding, connections and kindness with loved ones.

You can write well only when you express and show your feelings. Soulful music comes from deep within not from the surface. There is poetry in everybody's heart. We depend on poets, philosophers to help us express our deepest thoughts. Have you realised that many a times you sing based on your mood. You enjoy movies which reflect your current state of mind.

Deep feeling and longing are the main force behind every human endeavor. You cannot always feel the deeper feeling but just focus on what your heart says.

Jute painting

Goddess Durga

Reverse glass painting of Goddess Durga painted on occasion of Navaratri. A Madhubani style glass painting.

Look Within

Always be aware of your thoughts. You will be what you think. Your thought power has a lot towards your achieving your goals and dreams. Do not neglect your thoughts cos they have tremendous power.

Remember what you desire, your emotion, your choices are all seeds that you sow for you to grow into the huge tree that you are to become.

Absorb the spirit of acceptance. When you accept you bring about full responsibility, balance and you will see harmony in your life.

If you have made one human happier, you should consider your day has not been wasted.

The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you, it is when you do not understand yourself. so look within.....